I’ve started making lists. They are ostensibly “to do” lists, but in reality, they’re “have done” lists. I think I’m doing it because all this time is whipping by and I feel like I’m getting nothing done. Or rather, that all this time is whipping by, that I’m busy, and that everything I’m doing is useless.
This is a well documented ailment of the 20something age, I’m sure.
Seriously, though. I think it’s just a matter of looking at things objectively. If you can force yourself to be objective, you’ll see that things are indeed happening.
For example, the February issue of ION came out this week, marking the end of my first year at the magazine. I only bothered writing one story (about artist David Pirrie). It’s on the Art page, believe it or not.
AGENCY is also moving along and growing at a pleasantly organic rate. Our next issue (scheduled to published at the end of March) is going to feature some fairly big names. The first is writer Ayelet Waldman. You might remember me raving about her last year in the blah-og. (If not, and you’re interested, search the archive. I believe the post I wrote began with the line “Ayelet Waldman is ruing my life.”)
Anyway, she’s agreed to appear in AGENCY’s Author Spot section and I couldn’t be happier. We’ve already done the interview and she was predictably likable, funny and sarcastic. It was great. When I told her I thought of her as a big star, she said “Oh please.” I was charmed.
The next name we have scheduled to appear in the magazine is actress Cady McClain. I grew up watching her play a character on my mother’s favourite soap opera, All My Children. When I was a little girl, I just adored her (or her character, but I was nine so you’ve got to forgive me for not knowing the difference).
Cady is also a musician, an artist and a writer and in addition to giving us an interview, is planning to share some of her artwork and poetry with AGENCY readers. She was kind enough to link to us in her blog.
As was the case with Ayelet, I got such a thrill out of interviewing Cady. I don’t know why. I mean, it’s not just that she’s famous. (Interviewing famous people is WAY less of a thrill than you might expect. More often than not, it’s a huge let down.)
I think what it is - with both these ladies- is that I really, truly like the art they make, and their attitudes and personalities seem to stand up to that.
You know, when you like something – a movie, a book, a song – you always think you’re going to like the person behind that thing. And when you don’t, it’s so disappointing. It takes the shine off the original thing you liked and makes it seem less appealing somehow. It feels like you made some sort of mistake.
I didn’t feel like that with either Cady or Ayelet. Both were just as lovely as I expected them to be. And that makes all the difference.
So often in my job, I have to write about someone or something culturally significant, but not particularly touching. You know, like, the person I’m interviewing or the thing I’m writing about is important in some way, just not important to me. And to be able to write about someone or something that is both culturally important AND personally significant at the same time is a whole different thing. It feels so much better, you know? Like it’s worth something.
I knew I was doing this magazine thing for a reason.
Sorry to ramble.